8月 03, 2011

neon signs light up my eyes and I can't see the stars due to the light pollution.

When I first stepped on Taiwan’s soil, I felt like I was in the movie, “Lost in Translation.” I couldn’t believe my eyes. I’m actually on the other side of the world. Despite of my jet lag, I looked out the window in the car and everything was so unfamiliar to me. Neon signs lit up my eyes and I couldn’t see the stars due to the light pollution. I felt the energy from the strangers on the streets. My husband was willing to share his childhood, culture, lifestyle.

Sometimes life is nothing more than a comedy gone wrong. I would like to think of myself as a citizen of the world. Sometimes I just want to pack my bags, change my name, and become the person I'm afraid to be when I'm with the people who have already sculpted me into something else. I may feel like a girl with no identity, but maybe having a clean slate means I can start something wonderful. For an example; move to Taiwan and learn to speak an entirely new language. I still haven't found a place where I truly call home, but the saying goes like this --- the home is where the heart is. In that case, my heart is a tropical island and the blood that the heart pumps is bubble tea. I'm just saying.

People walk pass me every single day; they have destinations where they need to go. Then again, maybe some of the people are just wandering around either trying to figure out how to get out the rut or how to find some kind of passion.

Some people may ask me, "Why Taiwan? Why?!" I simply smile and give them the same answer, "我的心屬於台灣!/My heart belongs in Taiwan!" I believe I found my passion in Taipei. It will eventually be my permanent home.




ShiDa road is a major place for international students in Taiwan to hang out. You will find many places where you can buy glasses for a very low price, clothing, and delicious food. There are also many, many coffee shops for students to get their caffeine and studying time. I hope to one day to become a student myself. I'm grateful to be able to experience Taipei lifestyle and meet fascinating people. It opened my eyes and for the very first time, I feel like I have myself again. Weird, right? I feel ambitious and I also feel like there's actually equal opportunity here. I want to reach for the stars.

Note to self: Get my eyes checked and buy new glasses.




I never really considered myself as a religious person. I don’t really belong to any organized religion. The thing is, the first time I went to the Longshan temple, I felt like a ton of weight has lifted off my shoulders. I entered the temple as one person and I left as another; I don’t think I could ever be the same. For the longest time, I felt tense, cold, and distant. I’ve always been insecure. I didn’t feel like I could connect with anything at all.

I still don’t consider myself as a Taoist. I just simply found a place where I can collect my thoughts. That’s all. What is my identity, exactly? Moreover, do I really need one?