9月 16, 2011

I may sing off key but I at least carry my own tune.


Once upon a time, I wanted to be a musician. I never let on I was born with fetal alcohol syndrome. I went through many years of speech therapy and had many ear surgeries. I can't dance. I have two left feet. I can't carry a tune. I'm tone deaf. I remember when I was just a little girl, I recorded my own voice on a toy-like machine, and smashed it because I simply didn't like my singing. I was a violent girl, eh? I may have terrible hearing, but even I knew my voice sounded dreadful. That was the day when I stopped singing. I've realized early on that it simply wasn't my calling. I don't mind. I couldn't speak well enough for people to understand me. I used writing as another way to express myself. I figured I may not be able to make music, but I can at least write the lyrics.

Moreover,  I can also just draw abstract pieces of creatures dancing, singing, and playing instruments.